Well, I'm back at work and couldn't be happier ... actually that's a total lie, but it should be obvious by now :)
We had Matthew's cremation on Friday and I'm hoping that will give us some form of closure but today is one full week since he was born so it feels a bit wierd. Nothing at the office has really changed but somehow it feels like the world is going on around me and I'm not really involved in it, I guess everything will settle with time but it's just .. odd ..
I don't really have much to say. On Monday January 22 2007 our son Matthew was born and died. He was born very premature at 21 weeks and three days and had no chance of survival. If you're interested in the full details, check out my wife Elly's blog.
On Friday he's going to be cremated.
Right now, there's nothing else to say, for once I'm struck dumb...
It's been more than a month since my last post, the problem has been trying to find time to sit down and actually write something coherent.
In short, and not to put too fine a point on it, the last month has been utter cack.. Things started to take a turn in the week before Christmas when Elly was admitted to hospital three times in a week because of the bleeding she's was having. It was insanely worrying, and made worse by the fact that no-one could tell us why it was happening, the overriding feeling we got was that the medical types couldn't do anything, the baby was too small and we'd just have to wait and see what happened.
To cut a long story short, we spent a week running backwards and forwards to hospital and it was pretty dreadful to say the least. Then things calmed down a bit, until last week...
Elly's waters broke on Monday January 8th at around 5.30am and she was only 19 weeks into the pregnancy, we rushed her into the hospital who told us the baby was, to all intents and purposes, going to die and they gave him/her a 5% chance of survival and told us he'd be delivered and dead within a week - it was the worst day of my life.
For the last six days we've been taking things hour by hour and baby BB is still with us, we've turned our bedroom into a clean room and confined Elly to bed to keep her away from any forms of infection or stress and so far we are doing well.
Tomorrow we go back to the hospital to see the consultant and try to find out what's going on, hopefully we'll get some answers.
So, the main reason I haven't posted in over a month is that we've been worrying ourselves senseless over the health of Elly and the baby. Fingers crossed that everything will be fine and the little one is doing well - there's no way we're giving up on BB yet ...
